holy fucking

shit.

it's been a while. this is kind of entertaining, though.

i guess i could write about anything, since no one reads this anymore.

oh dear, the temptations.

my brain is fried from drugs

my body is in heat

and i've got the munchies like a motherfucker.

i've got a crush on a cute boy

and i'm ultra paranoid all the time about everything

i'm failing most of my classes

and i really dont give a fuck.

i just want to be in college

so i dont have to be responsible

because i can be responsible for everyone else when they need it

but i hate being responsible for myself.

and i need to shower

and i miss my boy.

the end.

it's been a while

i almost forgot my password. turns out, i just spelled my name wrong. i had the right password.

so i know that no one will probably read this, because, well, it's xanga, and there is only one person who has posted in the last month, so i'm guessing everyone pretty much has stopped making their daily pilgrimage here. either that or i'm really out of it. it IS 2:06am.

so heres a summation:

friends- the people i met in october/november have become my life. i spend a lot of time with them. ashley and hilary are the basis of this posse, and stemming from that i have met heather, domo, ross, adam, kevin, reggie, and a multitude of other gamer/raver/stoners. we get along fabulously. also, from this group of people, i met what has now been deemed "Groove Omaha Collective", a group of 18 to 30somethings that get together for house parties, clubs, and all around good times. i can't enjoy "regular" parties anymore, because i have become so "groove-ified". everyone knows everyone, and everyone has this amazing PLUR attitude. it's awesome.

erin and i are still bffaeae. jill and i started hanging out more (which i love), and mal and i have almost every class together, making the school day a bit more bearable. i have a few lunches with jaci, too, which is awesome.

lovers- i'm going to prom with my gay friend josh, who is incredibly good looking and i wish was straight. i met him at group, so i dont know what i was expecting. james and i started talking and watching movies again. john is sweet, but.... idk. we dont really mesh well. he likes me too much. chris and i are still cool, but i havent talked to him in like a week. i think i almost feel guilty, but not quite. our open relationship is proving to be a bit harder than i first expected.

school- i am going to creighton next year, and will probably be rooming with mal fry. i'm doing awful in just about every subject but physics, and i really am kind of scared about being able to graduate.

housing- i'm moving to the dorms next year, and next week we're moving to a new house. i dont know what all i'm going to unpack

lifestyle- i should really cut back on all the partying i do. i try to pace myself, but it's on days like these (days when i can fall asleep at 4 and not wake up until 10) that i realize how incredibly exhausting my life is. every day is a new thing to schedule for. i dont even have time to have a job, i'm too busy being a socialite. i'm a big hit at parties, now, and so are all of my friends. we're -expected- to be places. i can't not go to parties... it seems almost... rude :]

well this post is kind of weird, and i'm probably going to shut down my xanga next week. its a whole "moving on" thing i've got going on.

"it's not peer pressure, it's just your turn"

post-xmas mayhem

self-destructive, sub-atomic

drink your gin and fucking tonic.

last night me and erin hung out for the first time in a long time. sometimes it's hard to keep a relationship going. keep a real honest-to-god friendship full of life and entertainment, but she's the one person that i know i dont have to worry about. we have so many secrets. you wouldnt believe the things that we know about each other. things that nobody else knows- not boyfriends, not family members, not other friends. and that's why i respect her so much. she knows all of that stuff- the stuff that the other people don't know, and she's still cool with me.

we hung out with domo and hilary and brent and logan and jeff last night. hearing the pete ricketts impersonations again was fabulous. i remember the origin of the impersonations now. thought process: paul wall- money in the bank- pete ricketts has money in the bank- im pete ricketts. lol. also, the word "whirlybird" was somehow amazingly amusing, and the video i have of domo cracking up to this word (and the spelling of it) is priceless.

"and that's how she laughs normally."

"...sad."

chris floyd is my soulmate. he is also my online boyfriend. he is also cute. and he is also full of amazing stories; stories so far-fetched that i am sure they are true. because no one can come up with things like that. so, as of now, i am off the market. because until someone comes up that is better than him, im hopelessly devoted.

IT'S ALL A BIG JOKE. IT'S ALL A BIG JOKE.

lolroflcopterlmaobbq

he might

come visit me. isn't that amazing?